Baby Jase Month 1

Here's some fun pics of baby Jase in his 1st month of life!!!

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Day 15
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My Home Birth Experience

I welcomed my first child, Jase Michael Bisutti, into the world on January 21, 2014. And the first person to ever hold him was his Daddy! 

My husband delivered our little angel in our tub and baby Jase went right from my husbands arms up onto my chest! And we both sat there with tears running down our eyes and smiles on our faces as we gazed upon his little face. 

The three of us sat there in the tub together in silence as we got to love on our little angel for the first time! It was one of the most intimate experiences of my life and it was in that exact moment that I knew wholeheartedly just how much my husband loved me! People say kids can tear families apart but I have never been so close to my husband and have never felt so loved until our baby boy was born and we had this experience! 

Here is my story!

Before I even got pregnant I was drawn into watching a documentary on Netflix called The Business of Being Born. 

I believe that The Lord was guiding me to watch this because my husband and I weren't even sure we could have a baby at that time because I was diagnosed with PCOS ( basically makes it hard to conceive naturally ) so I wasn't watching it because I was researching for having a child of my own. But after watching the documentary, I was convinced that if I ever was able to get pregnant naturally and by Gods grace, I would have my baby at home and not in a hospital. The documentary talked about all of the positive reasons to have a baby outside of a hospital environment and in a more natural place and without the use of medications and I immediately became a big advocate for home birth and natural delivery. I am not saying that it is wrong to have a baby in a hospital. I'm saying that it became my desire and preference after watching this documentary and praying about it. 

So, needless to say... About two months after watching the documentary God gave me a gift!!! I was pregnant! 

I immediately started researching the midwives in my area so that I could plan for a home birth. My husband was fully supportive and super excited to do it at home especially when he found out he could be the one to deliver our child. The first midwife I met with was the one that I knew I wanted to be there for me while I have birth! Her name is Michele and I have to say I don't think I could have done it without her support! She was amazing and I believe God put her in our lives purposefully and I'm so grateful to Him for bringing her to us! 

My husband and I decided we wanted it to be a surprise whether it was a boy or girl so we never found out until baby Jase was in my husbands arms!  

My husband and I were in bed one night close to my due date when I thought my water broke! We called Michele and she told me to wait until my contractions were close together to have her come over... Long story short, it was a false alarm! But before we knew that, Michele came over the next morning to see how i was progressing! I was dilated some so she stayed to make sure everything progressed...  But after an entire day passed, I was not progressing much so Michele figured out that my waters had not actually broken so she began manually dilating me... Which was quite painful but not as bad as a migraine headache I would say. I ended up progressing little by little and the next morning things began to pick up. The pain still wasn't as bad as my worst period cramps or a migraine headache until I reached and 8 dilation and my waters really broke. Then things got more intense... From the time my waters broke at an 8 to the time I had baby Jase, my husband told me it was only an hour and a half, but during the pain I thought it was about 6 hours :) there wasn't ever a time in the pain that I desires to get an epidural though... Mike and Michele were constantly talking me through it and Mike was kissing me and holding me and telling me I could do it every step of the way! I also had pictures of mike and I all over in our room and scriptures as well to focus on. I talked to God ALOT during it all... When it came time to push I felt like it was time to get into the tub which was surrounded by wedding pictures or mike and I. Mike got in with me and stared into my eyes and helped me through each push and as baby Jase was born he caught him and said its a boy, sweet baby Jase as tears filled his eyes! 

He brought him up out of the water and onto my chest to hold him and he didn't even cry he just laid in my arms and opened his eyes and we all stared at him!  I couldn't have been more happy with the experience of it all and with my husband and I being able to be the first ones to touch and hold him. 

We then got out and cleaned him up and we were able to go right to our own bed and I nursed him and held him! It was so perfect and such a gift from the Lord! I'm so thankful we were able to have him at home! I cannot express enough how much more intimate it all was! It was an experience of a lifetime in such a good way!!!

My constant struggle: selfishness and living for ME

               Self Centered Living... 

That could possibly be the hardest struggle for all of mankind in my opinion

If you think about it... Our days are filled with things that are all about us! Our preferences, our self promotion, our pride, our egos... From things like going faster than the speed limit, to constantly checking social media sites, to being in a bad mood because we were all out of ice cream to wanting to watch TV over reading the Bible or having our minds set on things from above it all revolves around our selfishness

-caring so much what others think of us = selfishness

-posting pics to get likes and comments = selfishness

-skipping out on church or bible study... = selfishness

-manipulating a situation to get your way = selfishness

-hurting your friends and family to get your own agenda = selfishness

-not attending a certain church BC the music isn't your preference = selfishness 

The list goes on and on and on. 

There are so many things out there to consume ourselves with: video games, TV, social media, shopping, eating, etc

Unfortunately too much of my day revolves around me... And not enough of it revolves around the one thing that I was put on this earth to do: 


I believe this is why we are all so self consumed and constantly choose ourselves over Him. 

Because glorifying His name and dying to ourselves is our biggest calling in life! 

And when we aren't focused on that, we are not where we need to be. 

It is a constant struggle to say less of me and more of you Lord. Not my will but yours be done Lord... 

But one thing is for sure... The more I ask Him to help me stay on track, to help me pursue Him more, to help remind me who I am in Christ... And the more I stay diligent and disciplined in reading the word, the more I will put Christ first in my life and put myself last! 

Living up to "BEAUTY"

Beauty, pressures on girls, how to talk to your daughter about body image issues:

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I believe there is a huge problem in our society today. 

A problem that is causing a battle in the minds and hearts of our youth. A problem that is causing eating disorders, self esteem issues, and ultimately destruction in the lives of girls and women of all ages...

The problem that I am referring to is the standard of beauty that our society holds today and the effects of the media in our lives and how much we are all influenced by what the culture tells us about our self image and worth through ads, movies, and music. 

All women are affected by this illusion of beauty but the girls who are feeling the pressures of it are getting younger and younger as each year passes. TV, music, magazines, and all media have too large of an influence in the lives of our girls. 

I believe that moms can do something about this to protect their daughters hearts from the damaging effects of our media. 

When I was in junior high I was so strongly influenced by magazines and movies. I was influenced so much that I began talking, acting, and dressing differently when I was around my peers from school. I had subscriptions to most of the mainstream teen magazines and that is what I looked to for advice on boys, how I should look, and all things "popular". Unfortunately, the majority of those magazines are filled with advice that opposes the word of God. I remember watching the movie Mean Girls when I was in the 7th grade and looking back now I wish my mom never would have allowed me to see it. That movie was very damaging to my "so desperate to fit in" obsession that I had back then. After watching that movie I became infatuated with wanting to be like the popular girls in that movie and just fit in at school. I began dressing provocatively like them and even went as far as talking like them and making a burn book that mocked people because that is what the girls did in the movie and they were the girls who everyone wanted to be like and who every guy thought was beautiful. It saddens me to look back and see the kinds of things I did back then to try and fit in but back then I was at that age where I was so influenced by the media and was not taking the necessary steps to guard my heart. As the bible says, "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." (Proverbs 4:23). I thought I had to be as thin and tan as the girls I saw in the magazines and on the billboards. Growing up, I felt the pressures of having to look like the magazine ads in order to be accepted and worthy. One of my main problems was that I was looking to the world to find acceptance and self worth rather than looking to God for it. "For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ." (Galatians 1:10) Is your daughter like I was? Conformed to the world and the worlds standards of value and self worth? I know that if I was that impacted by the movies, magazines, and images around me then the girls in school today must be way more influenced by it all because there is so much more going on in the media now than just a short time ago when I was their age. As role models, sisters, moms, and friends to young girls we NEED to constantly be in their lives influencing them the right way- speaking truth to them and helping them guard their hearts. I truly believe that moms need to have a more Godly influence in their daughters lives. One of the ways that you can do this is by being the right kind of example. If your daughter is looking to you as her example, what is she seeing? Does she see someone who is also very influenced by our culture and media? Do you dress or act a certain way because of what society says or do you dress and act according to what the word of God says? Do you see that you yourself are beautiful because He says you are or do you try to live up to what the world deems beautiful? Do you talk down about yourself because you fit into the mold of the images that are in the magazines? Do you read tabloids with your daughter?  Whatever you spend your time consumed with is what she will want to consume herself with, especially if you do these things together. What types of TV shows do you and your daughter watch together? When I was younger I watched a lot of reality TV shows with my parents like Paris Hiltons old reality show The Simple Life. I don't recommend doing this with your daughter. Watching shows like this and seeing how much attention and popularity these stars receive for acting in the way that they do will make your daughter want to act like them and do what they do to get the attention or value that these celebrities have. After all, the celebs are the ones in the magazine ads and are considered valuable, beautiful, and worthy and these are all things that every little girl wants to feel. (The world just teaches you to obtain it in a completely different way than the Bible does). But while celebs get this attention from having sex tapes, partying, drinking, and sleeping around on TV, we are approving of it by watching it with our daughters. I was so focused on these shows as a teen that I didn't even look to Godly women or the bible to see that living according to the word of God and for Him is where you will attain true value and self worth. Whatever consumes your daughters heart will dictate and determine how she will think, act, and view herself. So, what has been filling your little girls mind? I used to fill my mind with magazines, social media (Facebook), reality TV shows, and movies. It didn't take long before I  was consumed with my looks. Looking like celebrities, trying to be "beautiful". Now I'm consumed with Christ. Consumed with His word. Positive websites. Motivational books. I quit Facebook. Stopped reading tabloids and fashion magazines. I don't watch TV shows that support the wrong message. I am finally free of being completely influenced and shaped by our media and its idea of what beauty is. I now believe beauty is something God created to glorify Him and I think your inner beauty and desire to be a God-fearing woman is what we should strive for! These are the things we need to teach the girls of this generation. We need to encourage them to fill their hearts with good and positive things and guard their hearts by cutting out the things that lead to destruction. We need to teach them to be counter cultural. We live in this world but we are not called to be friends with the world and to live according to its ways. We are to live according to the bible. God's word should influence us so much that we do things opposite of what the world tells us. "Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.  Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:1, 2) I encourage you to teach your daughters that the world is just trying to sell them on an illusion. How to attain happiness and beauty the way the world teaches it is just an illusion and is unattainable and leads so many girls into depression, eating disorders, insecurities, and body image issues. But happiness and beauty the way God teaches is is real and true and brings forth life! We need to teach girls that God made them the way they are and He looks at the beauty of the heart! He views them as beautifully made and it's better to focus on that than on what others think of them here on earth because we will spend eternity with him VS a short period of time with the people who reject us here on earth. He accepts us and finds us worthy as we are but the world will not accept us as we are and is always giving us ways to change ourselves. Inner beauty is not promoted nearly as much as it should be in today's society. That is why it is up to you moms to share with your daughter about the true way to be beautiful and praise her for her inner qualities and steer her away from what will bring her little heart into insecurities.

DIY transform items in your house using duck tape

You can change the look of just about anything using duck tape! 

And now days they have pretty much every color and design of duck tape you could possibly imagine. So the possibilities really are endless. My bedroom is all camo! We live in Montana and are hunters and campers and fishers so you can only imagine how much we like camo. :) our bedding and curtains are camo so I wanted to tie some other things in the room as well. Here us what I did: a picture frame, lamp, and a dresser. 

Have Fun duck taping :)

DIY photo gift with scripture or loving words

DIY Large Photo Print with 1 Corinthians 13

These things make a great gift for the loved ones in your life.

You can do this in any size photo that you want but I wanted to make a huge one for my husband so I went to staples and got a poster print printed. You can do this for 4.99 at Walmart! You then need to get a frame that is one or two sizes larger than your photo print. So if you have an 8x10 photo you would want an 11x14 frame. Some then take your photo and center it in the frame. You will have empty space on all sides of the photo. This is where you will be writing scripture or whatever you want. You can use scrap booking paper, construction paper, or the paper that can with the picture frame to border your photo. I just used what it came with because it was quick and easy. After you have your border around the photo you can get creative. I used a sharpie to simply write out the bible verse on mine all round the photo, but you can use paint, glitter, stamps, stickers... Maybe movie tickets from a special date or a souvenir from a trip relating to the pic. It's all up to you to design it the way you want :) here's how mine turned out!

How to get beach hair without going to the beach

How to get beach hair without going to the beach!

My hair is naturally stick straight! so to change it up and give it some texture this is what I do! For the tosseled beach textured hair you get after being in the ocean and sun for a few hours you will only need to do a few quick things at home. 

1. Spray your dry or almost dry hair with salt water. Spray it down really good all over  You can make your own (one tbsp sea salt per 8oz water) or you can use a salt water product like my favorite by Aquage.  

2. Twist your hair into prices leia buns. One on each side of your head.

3. You can either leave these in overnight if you do this routine before bed or you can take a blow dryer to them and dry them completely.

4. Undo your buns and check out your beach textured hair :)